Words from Mr Lee (Bukan nama sebenar...)

I was going to make this incident as my Facebook status, but I remembered that there are a few close minded people in my friendlist who might take this the wrong way. So this is what happened yesterday at work...

I was the first person to arrive at a meeting. The second person was Mr Lee. No obviously that is not his real name... for security and personal reasons I won't mention real names. It was the first time I met Mr Lee so he basically have no idea who I am, and vice versa.

The ice breaking session suddenly reached the "Are you married yet?" point. He bravely asked me the question. So I just honestly answered, "No..."

"Haiyaaaa... You banyak cantik belum ada calon kaaaa? Kahwin saja la maaaa... dalam sini pun banyak lelaki bujang oooo..." 

(Translation : "Haiyaaa... a pretty face like you still not married aaaa? Here got many single man maaa...")

Well, I have nothing to defend myself against so I just casually laughed. And he went on...

"Nowadays ha... There are more men than woman you know... so chances are slim now for you..."

And I corrected him, "Mr Lee, It's the fact that there are less quality men than women... I can't just go marry anyone, right? Just for the sake of being married..."

And Mr Lee responded with the most cruel yet true statement in the history of marriage talks...

"Iyaaa betul tu... Tapi kan... I tengok banyak lecturer perempuan main kahwin saja dengan mana-mana lelaki wooo... Main sapu ja sapa-sapa..."

(Translation :"You're right, but I see many lecturers just marry whoever they can find...") -i.e "desperate".

I forgot how I replied to him but it just ended with a laugh. Our "bitter-truth" conversation was interrupted when a fellow colleague entered and managed to change the subject.

But wow... I always had these kind of thoughts in my own head, I never really had the courage to say it out loud. Mr Lee's intentions was probably sincere and meant no harm. I should have reminded him that not everyone has the same love/life story.Everyone has their own version of "How I met your mother." You can't just just go around judge people based on to whom they are married to. Plus, if they wanna marry "whoever" they want, It's obviously not to impress you. :)

One Sunday Afternoon

I'm a melodramatic person. I think too much about everything. I even have trouble sleeping because I think too much. I am easily influenced by what they show on E!. I admire all the Hollywood Stars and buy what they promote. I never seem to have enough no matter how much I spend on shopping.

But it was this evening when I was arranging my things, I suddenly realized. I own too much.

I am the kind of person who can never settle with ONE item. I must have a collection of everything. Hell I even have 2 laptops for the sake of it. You should see my collection of cosmetics, books, bags, clothings and stuffed toys. They are never enough. And they are all costly too. I'm not the kind of person who buys local, unbranded things. Not proud of it. An ex-crush of mine even rejected me because I was too "high maintenance". I cannot disagree.

Lately, the news have broadcast series of tragedies. The biggest one being the disappearance of MH370. It's devastating, having no ending to a tragedy. Then, as if that wasn't heartbreaking enough, 4 months later MH17 was shot down, leaving 0 survivors, killing at least 200 innocents. Stories were being told shedding people's tears and making the whole work mourn.

On a larger scale, Gaza was attacked non-stop by the heartless Zionists. I don't know much about the story behind this battle but I do know that innocent children and animals are being killed. I still believe it's more of a battle of ideologies instead of religions because I want to keep believing that all religions are good. Nevertheless, It's still devastating that humans are killing humans for reasons as weak as politics.

Back in my own country, Sabah is being attacked by intruders. Also, I don't know much about this event as too many false news are being spread in social networks. But many enforcers were killed, and people are demanding war. I am left confused.

So many tragedies lead to a sad, quiet Eid. I was contented staying around family for a whole week and was half-hearted going back to Ipoh, where I work. I realized how lonely I am now and how I tried making it up by spending money on shopping. So I started to sort out my things and my train of thoughts decided to move at full speed.

While I own more than what I need, there are people who have nothing. Children who are starving.

I don't need to elaborate on that to make you understand what I mean.

I keep talking about making a change to the world when I should just start on myself.  I don't know if this will happen but I guess I need to try.  I need to stop buying unnecessary things and live a humble life. I need to make things change for myself before the world. For the better...

I need to at least try...