Friday, 9 October 2015

Summary of my 6 month absence

It has been 6 months of absence from this blog. I know I havent been active since I stopped teaching CC503 Traffic Engineering. I guess they decided I suck or something at that and moved me to another course. A better one, in fact. I honestly had fun teaching my new students this new subject.

I guess, having good students is what makes a good lecturer. This semester, I am blessed to teach a group of crazy, funny and hardworking kids. Their attention was undivided, although sometimes a few "ehem..."s were required when they start to talk to each other, ignoring the lesson. But throughout the whole 5 months, I have never felt excited to enter the classes, do my lessons interactive style and actually enjoy it. Lecturing is awesome.

I remember 4 years ago I wasn't as cheerful a lecturer as I am this year. I remember scolding students, threatening to fail them and even made some cry. At one point I realize there was absolutely no reason why I should be a bitch. Teaching is the career I chose for myself. Why not embrace it. Be happy with it. And master it.

After attending KIPA, a course for new educators, I realized this job is more than my monthly income. Teaching should be sincere and fun. I cannot treat the students like how I was treated by my lecturers. I lived in an era where there was no smartphones, no Facebook and access to internet was totally difficult. Those days, we were tough, our hearts were stone hard. We took criticism like eating cake. Digested it like it was nothing. I can't do that with my students. The environment has changed. Internet plays too much a big part in their way of thinking and handling things.

In 3 years I learned to control my emotions and temper. I reminded myself to not say or do things I would regret later. I guess it worked as I don't feel much hatred or resentfulness from my students. There's so much more to learn.

This semester, I am happy.

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