Happy working day, I guess. As for me, I'm still on my "wake up at 9.00 am" routine. A month has gone by since semester break started and I haven't done anything useful or "impact"ful. Just me at my parents', with random thoughts in my head.
It's a battle between me and my memories. Some of which I wish to delete for good. But there they all lay at the bottom of the recycled bin, like a virus I cannot seem to permanently delete. Mistakes, wrong decisions and regret were made in my life. All the criteria enough to be human.
But I guess everyone has these demons. They are what made us who we are. We try things, find out they are wrong, we regret them and the next thing we know is we repeat them. Some admit to these wrong doings and some just live in denial, only to be haunted by what was done and what was lost.
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| Just don't let them hold you forever |
I'm sure you think my words are just mumbo jumbos of a bored person. Partly, maybe. I am on my semester break having not much to do, so let me win this lol. The point of this entry is when you have that much free time on your hands, your past memories come and haunt you for no reason. (Facebook and other social media ain't making them easier to forget too...).
So just be careful, I tell myself. Don't let these past ghosts reshape you into something you don't want to be. I've been on the road of mistakes and I don't tend to walk through that again. What I have learned to do is admit the wrongs and move on. I don't want to be those who keep finding excuses to justify what they have done. Eventually, it will come back and cause utter depression.
If you're wondering what kind of mistakes I've done, don't. Just let it remain in the bottom of my memory to remind me of the worst. It's nothing to do with religions and all that. Just mistakes a naive, inexperience person makes. Let's move on.
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