One Sunday Afternoon

I'm a melodramatic person. I think too much about everything. I even have trouble sleeping because I think too much. I am easily influenced by what they show on E!. I admire all the Hollywood Stars and buy what they promote. I never seem to have enough no matter how much I spend on shopping.

But it was this evening when I was arranging my things, I suddenly realized. I own too much.

I am the kind of person who can never settle with ONE item. I must have a collection of everything. Hell I even have 2 laptops for the sake of it. You should see my collection of cosmetics, books, bags, clothings and stuffed toys. They are never enough. And they are all costly too. I'm not the kind of person who buys local, unbranded things. Not proud of it. An ex-crush of mine even rejected me because I was too "high maintenance". I cannot disagree.

Lately, the news have broadcast series of tragedies. The biggest one being the disappearance of MH370. It's devastating, having no ending to a tragedy. Then, as if that wasn't heartbreaking enough, 4 months later MH17 was shot down, leaving 0 survivors, killing at least 200 innocents. Stories were being told shedding people's tears and making the whole work mourn.

On a larger scale, Gaza was attacked non-stop by the heartless Zionists. I don't know much about the story behind this battle but I do know that innocent children and animals are being killed. I still believe it's more of a battle of ideologies instead of religions because I want to keep believing that all religions are good. Nevertheless, It's still devastating that humans are killing humans for reasons as weak as politics.

Back in my own country, Sabah is being attacked by intruders. Also, I don't know much about this event as too many false news are being spread in social networks. But many enforcers were killed, and people are demanding war. I am left confused.

So many tragedies lead to a sad, quiet Eid. I was contented staying around family for a whole week and was half-hearted going back to Ipoh, where I work. I realized how lonely I am now and how I tried making it up by spending money on shopping. So I started to sort out my things and my train of thoughts decided to move at full speed.

While I own more than what I need, there are people who have nothing. Children who are starving.

I don't need to elaborate on that to make you understand what I mean.

I keep talking about making a change to the world when I should just start on myself.  I don't know if this will happen but I guess I need to try.  I need to stop buying unnecessary things and live a humble life. I need to make things change for myself before the world. For the better...

I need to at least try...