Just me and my thoughts...

Monday, 7th August 2017.

Happy working day, I guess. As for me, I'm still on my "wake up at 9.00 am" routine. A month has gone by since semester break started and I haven't done anything useful or "impact"ful. Just me at my parents', with random thoughts in my head.

It's a battle between me and my memories. Some of which I wish to delete for good. But there they all lay at the bottom of the recycled bin, like a virus I cannot seem to permanently delete. Mistakes, wrong decisions and regret were made in my life. All the criteria enough to be human.

But I guess everyone has these demons. They are what made us who we are. We try things, find out they are wrong, we regret them and the next thing we know is we repeat them. Some admit to these wrong doings and some just live in denial, only to be haunted by what was done and what was lost.

Just don't let them hold you forever

I'm sure you think my words are just mumbo jumbos of a bored person.  Partly, maybe. I am on my semester break having not much to do, so let me win this lol. The point of this entry is when you have that much free time on your hands, your past memories come and haunt you for no reason. (Facebook and other social media ain't making them easier to forget too...).

So just be careful, I tell myself. Don't let these past ghosts reshape you into something you don't want to be. I've been on the road of mistakes and I don't tend to walk through that again. What I have learned to do is admit the wrongs and move on. I don't want to be those who keep finding excuses to justify what they have done. Eventually, it will come back and cause utter depression.

If you're wondering what kind of mistakes I've done, don't. Just let it remain in the bottom of my memory to remind me of the worst. It's nothing to do with religions and all that. Just mistakes a naive, inexperience person makes. Let's move on.

What's happening today...

As usual, these few weeks have been viral-ful. From Chester Bennington's suicide (RIP, Legend) to some local artists' scandals to the none other than Malaysian's Top 3 Richest Retards. Nothing could be more entertaining than the internet.

But to the most important tragedy of last week, the lost of a voice.

Dear Chester,

I don't know you in person, I don't know your story. All I know is what the media told me through articles, blogs, TV and all that. But the part of you that I do know, your beautiful voice and beautiful face, I will surely miss. What a voice you have, the kind that touches hearts and melts souls. There is no other like you. And I will never, ever understand how someone with a voice like the angels could lose the battle with merciless demons. Rest in Peace, Chester, wherever you are.

Why am I so lazyyyyyy...?

Why have I still not started blogging for a living yet. Why am I ridiculously lazy?!

Yup

CHANGE

Blogs are supposed to be thoughts that people share with the world. In the old days, it used to be called "diary" or "journal". Now, anyone can write whatever and publish them wherever. Nobody needs a degree in Mascom anymore. Anyone can be a journalist as long as they got something to write about. I can only try.

What I notice about my blog wannabe is how all over the place I am. I can't seem to find a theme I like. First it'll be all about me. Then, it'll be about the world. Then, back to me again. All the crazy thoughts in my head. And now, I'm blogging about my blogging. So yeah, you can see how all over the place I am, right? Urgh... And not like anyone cares, right? Noone reads my blogs. And I don't intend for anyone to. I'm not taking up a full time career in blogging, I have a daytime job.

Still, I'd like things to be in order. So I'm gonna set a theme. For this page, I guess I'll be blogging about my thoughts of what's viral in the country or the world. I will make another personal blog on another page. So everything will be organized. 💡 Inspired!

Let's do this! Let's ignore all the posts before this coz I'm too lazy to remove them all. Plus, someday I might wanna see how ridiculous my blog was before. (Unless it still is) 😆

Ramadhan is here!

Happy fasting, everyone! Let's make this Ramadhan a month of good deeds. Let's be good.

Why Kareem? What does it mean?

Manchester, a tragedy...

The moment the news came flooding on my Facebook timeline, I instantly knew. A Muslim did it... Because who else, right?

What is wrong with the people of my religion? Why are so many becoming terrorists and murderers? Didn't the religion tell us to be good? To be faithful, to trust in God and to JUST BE GOOD? Why are people in this religion killing innocents? Why are they making it so hard being a Muslim?

I'm thankful for the fact I was born and raised in this country. Wasatiah. That's what they reminded us to be. It's just simple logic. Once you fall too deep into something, be it a religion, race, video games, drugs or whatever, you lose sense of reality. You become angry. Extremism makes you a murderer in the name of that faith that swallowed your common sense. Sad reality that is.

I didn't read too much about the Manchester tragedy. I just knew it happened after an Ariana Grande concert. 22 people killed, mostly kids. And a Muslim from Libya did it. He suicide-bombed the arena because he was a coward. He probably thought he'd go to heaven after all that. Dumb-ass. And here we are, the rest of the Muslims in the world trying to convince others that he didn't represent our faith. He was a loser, selfish bastard who screwed up and cowardly took innocent lives because he was scared to die alone.

It's so hard being a Muslim in this world. I understand why most people hate us. And I can't help but to keep apologizing to the world. I just hope one day, it will all be better. God, help us all. Amen.

But I'm just one person.

Life so far...

Okay, I am soooo not meant to be a blogger. I'm only writing stuff when I'm in the mood, which is always never. So here's a quick update about what's been happening in my life. 

Still crazy about make up.

Yup. I find myself spending billions on Sephora make up product. Not that they make me any prettier, but having them, wearing them boost up some confidence I desperately lack off. 

Is Belle...!

There was a crazy drama about Beauty and the Beast a few months back. Something about Disney promoting LGBT. To add salt to the wound, we went to this so-called fairy tale "event" in Mines Convention Center and wasted RM150.00 for a stupid, ridiculous nothingness. The event sucked, the promoters sucked, the whole idea was a disappointment.   

Squished by Elmo

To fix the disapointment, we splurged in Singapore. The experience was fun. But my bank account was badly damaged. Yikes.

Hala Madrid Y Nada Mas...!

We are going to finals, baby!!! So as usual (ahem...) We beat Atletico in semi finals and now we're off to kick Juvy in the finals. For the twelfth!!!

We all love this guy now

Thanks to my sister and my boyfriend, I am officially a TWD fan. This show is awesome. The writing is awesome. The casts are awesome. Finished the series in a week and now we're in love with Daryl Dixon.

My shopping addictness continues...

It's funny how Facebook and Instagram can make you look so cool and richie rich. But yeah, I love shopping so much, it really doesn't matter that I do it for someone else. I also went to KL solo. (Not so solo, my BF did send me there) And I LOVED it. I think I might do it again. I love appearing strong and independent! 

I dream in red.

And as for the latest update, I am now an apple watch user. It took like a day for me to decide to buy it or not, and I did. A gift for myself. Something cool and sophisticated to wear around. And now I have to pay the damages to my bank account. Kudos, Anne! And also, we love red now. Pink is soooo yesterday.  

 So that's about all the cool things so far. See you in the next post. Whenever that will be.